An Ode To My Mother...

I was a newborn

she entwined her fingers with mine

took me to her bosom n made a promise

a promise to nurture me forever

and then she kissed my forehead

I was one

she held up my tiny hands

and made me take my first steps

she cheered for me and shed tears

tears of amazement and pride

I was five

i stood with her in awe of the big gates

feeling like an outsider in an alien world

she assured me that she would wait,while I wept

as she let go of me for the first time

I was ten

I tripped on a stone and cut myself

she rushed to me,beads of sweat on her forehead

I could see my pain reflected in her eyes

eyes that sparkled with love and concern

I was thirteen

I'd newly discovered the rebel in me

I was experiencing the tumults of the years

as she watched me grow from a child to a teenager

she smiled to herself in silent amusement

I was fifteen

in her i found a shoulder to cry on

she was my rock and my weakness

we fought and joked and went all crazy

creating memories that we would laugh at later

I am seventeen now

she is my best friend,my guide

the keeper of my darkest secrets

my refuge in times of agony

she is the one who puts a smile on my face

she is my MOTHER.

-Aamen.

Fuck off!

Do you remember...

it seems just like yesterday

the wound is still so fresh

throbbing with pain,

so much...that it drowns the rest of my senses.

Come on,don't pretend...

like you understand,

'coz I know you don't!

So cut the crap-

love was just another excuse

for you to see me cry.

Don't even bother,boy

to apologize,

it doesn't matter anymore.

Just move away,

I don't need you like

I needed you before.

Go suck her face if you want to,

but don't expect me to go green with jealousy...

'coz I've gotten over you

just like a teenager gets over acne...

You don't figure in the scene anymore,

so FUCK OFF!

---• » Aamen.

Whenever...

 Whenever you smile at me,

I fall in love again,head over heels...

Whenever you say a funny joke,

I can't help myself,from laughing in peals...

Whenever you call my name,

I yearn to hear it,100 times over again...

Whenever you hold my hand,

I don't find a reason with God,to complain...

Whenever you look in my eyes,

the world seems to have no lies,

Whenever you say,'I love you'

I wish you'd say it forever,I do.

---• » Aamen.

I wish you'd love me too...

Have you ever thought

how much you mean to me?

Can you ever feel

my pain and agony?

Did you ever love

someone the way I do?

Will you ever know

that I'm the one for you?

So tell me,

Are you so immune

to all the tears that flood up my eyes?

Are you satisfied,

with all the pretense and all the lies?

Did you ever try,to ask yourself why

I still love u...

I don't care if I have to pay the price

I just wish you'd love me too...

---• » Aamen.

Till I met you...

My life was a big black hole

everyday felt like doomsday

there was no-one that could console

my troubled mind in any way

But then you came along

and I was reincarnated

now I know where I belong

its worth the while I waited

You defy all my expectations

maybe you're more than I deserve

when I'm with you,it feels like gravitation

perhaps this time its true love

So now...

I've come to the conclusion

that I was in total delusion

that everything was an illusion

till I met you...

---• » Aamen.

I'm Okay...

I trod the silent shores,

of vile thoughts and dark sorrows,

that gather round my memory...

Life feels like a tiresome chore,

with my world thrown into uproar,

while I try to hold on to sanity...

The future is a blurry haze,

the past burns in an incessant blaze,

I don't even know when is today...

Loneliness pounces on me like its prey,

the world I see is all shades of grey,

but I still keep saying,'I'm okay'...

---• » Aamen.