Paranoia...

The fake smile...

The pretense in my eyes...

What a good act I put up.

Are you so blind?

The pain builds up...

like layers of soil-

one upon the other,

hardening as the time passes by..

I desperately try to bear it.

Is it too much to ask from myself?

How long will it take-

for me to become paranoid?

But I see one pretty sight,

the silver lining on the cloud...

hoping that it will end soon,

that this shroud of paranoia will finally fade...

---• » Aamen.

Nothingness...

Can you not see?

When you stand before me,

the faint glimmer in my eyes...

hungry for something it can never claim for itself.

A dark Nothingness engulfs my senses,

all I feel is your absence...pulsing through my veins,

I feel it in my heart.

I feel it in my soul.

I feel it in my entire existence.

Everything has disappeared,

it seems...as if I am unconscious.

I cannot decipher the language my heart speaks,

or understand the tunes that it plays.

How long can I hold on...

to this imaginary rope?

How much can my heart withstand...

till it breaks into shards?

Do you not see?

Every time I smile,

the pain reflects in my eyes...

Me desperately trying to camouflage it.

Walking alone on the path of broken dreams,

I feel something in my heart-

PAIN? LOVE? AGONY? ECSTASY? HOPE?

Or is it just the NOTHINGNESS?

---• » Aamen.