Someday...

Someday I’ll go dance a pirouette,

Wearing a black suit and a tie.

Sitting back, I often wonder...

How many times did Pinocchio lie?

Someday the trees will all be pink,

And candy floss bright green.

That day I will go to Wonderland,

And spend the day with Mr. Bean.

Someday I’ll get a seat on a meteor,

And make a trip across the Milky Way!

Glitter bugs will fill my skylight,

And night will become day.

Someday you’ll know that love can move a mountain,

Someday you’ll know that my love is true,

Someday you’ll know…

That I was the one for you..!

---• » Aamen.

(Inspired by the song "someday you'll know" by Mandy Moore and Jon Foreman)

5 Random things About me!

Five random things? Man, does that sound lousy...but I guess I wanted to do this post since forever...so I'm just gonna. I promise I will try my best to be as random as possible...

Random thing number 1:-

Do I imagine it or do all the geckos in the whole frigging world feel attracted to me? I guess you guys must have heard of my new name "The liz queen"...its horrendous! If it were up to me, I would have had the entire lizard race ERADICATED from the face of the earth. Those creepy crawlies make me shudder, they don't even fail to torment me in my dreams, let alone when I'm awake. I wish I could get hold of my life's keyboard, press " shift+ delete" and send those icky reptiles off to PERMANENTLY DELETED ITEMS.

Random thing number 2:-

I have a confession to make. I am one of those people who get obsessed with too many things at a time. Remember that girl who is always drooling over some song, movie, actor or even things as absurd as the color blue, the smiley language and ancient English names? Yes, baby that is ME. Its perfectly normal for you to find me reciting the dialogues of an entire movie (that I have watched over 20 times in the course of a week); or showering you with knowledge of Mexican cuisine and Greek mythology; or telling you how much I go gaga over empire lines-ballerinas-abstract prints and little blue dresses! And believe it or not, I am most obsessed with none other than MYSELF! Please, don't be intimidated...yet.

Random thing number 3:-

I am two faced. Not that kind of two faced where you are angelic in front of someone and devilish behind his back...but two faced as in having a split personality. I am two 'Aamen'-s at the same time. Aamen one is silly, cheerful, careless and immature. Aamen two on the other hand is serious, contemplative, wary and over-mature. Aamen 1 voices her opinion, Aamen 2 holds herself back. Aamen 1 is a face in the crowd, Aamen 2 stands out. Aamen 1 is loved by all, Aamen 2 is distanced from everyone. Struggling with my two fold existence, I seriously need HELP.

Random thing number 4:-

There are many things I like/hate/do without any specific or intelligible reason. For example, I just love the name 'Vedant'. I prefer dogs to cats...hate poodles, bulldogs and hounds..and love pugs, chihuahuas and dachshunds. I love 'love across the salt desert', though most of my classmates detest the story. I prefer to get into trouble, rather than admit a mistake I have not committed. I am an introvert in front of strangers, and a complete chatterbox with friends. Although blue is my favorite color, I buy most of my clothes in shades of pink. I dunno why i hate 'Tom and Jerry' and love 'Shinchan'. I think Taylor Lautner is hotter than Robert Pattinson.I want to marry A R Rahman, don't ask me why.

Random thing number 5:-

I am a very good actor. I think I ought to get the academy awards for my performances, that are so real...that no one even doubts me a bit. I am an expert at camouflaging my real emotions and putting on that gilded mask of cheerfulness...so that no one has any idea what I am really thinking about. I may be laughing out loud at something, while I am helplessly crying inside. I don't usually give vent to my true emotions...except when I am enjoying my ME time.

So...these were the five random things about myself. Aloha!
-Aamen.

Paranoia...

The fake smile...

The pretense in my eyes...

What a good act I put up.

Are you so blind?

The pain builds up...

like layers of soil-

one upon the other,

hardening as the time passes by..

I desperately try to bear it.

Is it too much to ask from myself?

How long will it take-

for me to become paranoid?

But I see one pretty sight,

the silver lining on the cloud...

hoping that it will end soon,

that this shroud of paranoia will finally fade...

---• » Aamen.

Nothingness...

Can you not see?

When you stand before me,

the faint glimmer in my eyes...

hungry for something it can never claim for itself.

A dark Nothingness engulfs my senses,

all I feel is your absence...pulsing through my veins,

I feel it in my heart.

I feel it in my soul.

I feel it in my entire existence.

Everything has disappeared,

it seems...as if I am unconscious.

I cannot decipher the language my heart speaks,

or understand the tunes that it plays.

How long can I hold on...

to this imaginary rope?

How much can my heart withstand...

till it breaks into shards?

Do you not see?

Every time I smile,

the pain reflects in my eyes...

Me desperately trying to camouflage it.

Walking alone on the path of broken dreams,

I feel something in my heart-

PAIN? LOVE? AGONY? ECSTASY? HOPE?

Or is it just the NOTHINGNESS?

---• » Aamen.